Timed Writing 011308

it's a weird life. what would i do if i got famous. what would i do (different) if the money were mine? that's interesting question. am i still financially in-sex-ure after all these years? i don't really think that's it. i think it's looking at my kids' faces.... disappointment, anger... (about imaginary divorce)... it would all be SO much easier if their mother (my wife) got the bug up her butt to take a lover, preferably a woman that would make it all so... so... what? new agey weird. but then i'd get the kids and i'd have to explain to them that daddy's decided to date men.
shit. makes you wish you never left the city. need to be surrounded my urban eccentrics. where's smart growth when you need it?
ha.

the work.
in my hermitage all going well. Darger With Money, ha.
Howard Hughes with a paint brush and a word processing program. that would have been interesting, huh? what would he have SAID.
(still, the celebrity art sites aren't all that interesting other than IMAGINING guy's like pearce brosnan with a sunday afternoon beret on...) still --
[martin mull's were seriously "progressive" works]
still -

i'm finding a way into the characterization of Marion (Sontag). I'm having to steal from Land somewhere else
which is fine
not sure i'll ever get to that. back to that.
i'm sort of despairing on the CULTURE WALLS... like the MN book awards, the "left" if you will has so FIRMY grasbed the (steering) wheel of culture. everywhere you look. everywhere.
i can't even tell my secretary-helper that i'm not a leftie
everyone assumes
if you're "nice" and "creative" and wear blue jeans you are a leftie...

reading a lot about mussolini now. how he wasn't (at first) a racist, how he and hitler didn't really care for each other, how hitler never really had a coherent philosophy, but he knew how to speak and rile people up.
took a break to visit the national review online's liberal fascism blog
ok the timer went off
whew
long live add
is there ADD in heaven?
does god have ADD?