Friday, September 21, 2007

Patricia Highsmith: Why Write?


So finally I find this incredible writer. How did I find her, I'm not even sure now. Oh, I remember, I was looking into "literary thriller" lists on the net and her name came up. Since Hitchcock did her "Strangers on a Train" I thought it would be fun to read it, then see the movie. [Also did this with John Lecarré's "The Spy Who Cam in from the Cold." More on that later.] The first shock, besides how amazingly rare it was to read a book with a REAL PLOT that had fully developed characters. It made some of my recent attempts to pull stuff off the shelves at the airport bookstores (both literally and so to speak) so pathetic. Is it so hard to write like her? What I suspect happened is that the "tree" of writing broke somewhere along the line and "literary" people went one way and plot people another. The plot people were less fussy about the quality of their characters and the mysteries and thrillers (I'm making this up) drifted toward "genre" writing, with a heavy reliance on stock characters. Tremendous financial success of many of these writers (Stephen King, John Grishom, Micheal Crighton, etc.) made it seem like they had struck gold. On the other hand, the literary people, bolstered by a whole new industry of "MFAs" in writing, drifted toward a small, snobbier audience. The books more and more positioned character against plot, or made plot necessarily so "mundane" (or it's twin "diverse and exotic") that these books were not attractive cross-overs to the "genre" markets. To justify themselves, the literary industry has taken on various causes: women writers, gay writers, disabled writers, people of color writers and now "global literature" and soon to come "the green writers." It's all well intended (isn't nearly everything, though?) but it has been devastating to the success of the "literary novel." Soon, as Updike predicated, literary fiction will go the way of poetry: its readers and writers will be the same (small) population.
Back to Patricia Highsmith. It didn't have to be this way--that's what I get from reading her.
On top of it, she "should have" been (maybe she was, what do I know?) discovered by and included in the feminist/lesbian pantheon for her early lesbian themed work. But one suspects that writing under a pseudonym and writing in the 1950s might have worked against her, also the bisexuality of her biography. Clearly she had some explaining to do. But one suspects that the deeper problem is that she was an early genre crosser, with a deadly toe in mystery, the lit crowd didn't need to be bothered by her.
In a recent trip to two Barnes & Nobels, this is what I found. The first store (Maplewood, MN) had two books but her, but they were not in fiction (where I looked first) but in mystery. The second store (Highland Village, St Paul, MN) didn't have her at all! Yes, I, too, was shocked. How could it be that I finally find a writer that excites me and Barnes & Noble, who carry SO MUCH CRAP, didn't have the space, interest or market for her. And worse, what does this tell me about writing, even my writing?
A quick note on movie adaptations. I was shocked (God, I'm shocked a lot in this entry) to see how much Hitchcock (who I respect) had changed her story. Why did he change the main protagonist from an architect to a tennis pro? It made so sense. Most seriously, the entire book is built around the premise that a normal person could be lured by circumstances to commit a murder. In Hitchcock (yes, brave Hitchcock!) the good guy doesn't even commit his murder! Was this part of the censorship issue in Hollywood at the time? Perhaps. But it shifted the story completely from a fascinating character study to a good guy/bad guy story. True the fight on the merry-go-round is breathtaking cinema, but it's still just a fight and we know from the beginning who is going to win.
John Lecarré's adapted movie "The Spy Who Came in From the Cold" had a similiar problem. In tone and character the movie was fairly accurate (though watching people talk is innately less interesting than being inside at least one of the talkers), but in the book, a very key scene occurs when the spy, Leamas, kills a guard. There is very little explanation about why he kills the guard in the book even though you are in "close third" and have access to his thoughts. One suspects it is frustration, it's a sort of breakdown, but the victim is only half guilty. True he's stalking Leamas (probably not to kill) but Leamas is already in a low security prison. In any case, Leamas' murder of the guard reminded me of Camus' character murdering the arab in "L'Etranger." It's an existentialist act, meaning to me, it's complex, partly random, partly insane, partly a statement that killing and not killing are the same thing (which of course they aren't). But in the movie, the merely skip that scene entirely and throw Leamas into a more serious prison without explanation. Of course, as a viewer we understand that his captors (bad communists) are capable of exacerbating his punishment by whim. We accept it. But again, at the core of the book is the mystery of who is Leamas and his impulsive murder makes distances him from our sympathy and understanding. In the movie, we see him more as a broken down and disillusioned man, not a man who could or would rise to sudden intense action. So, he is much less mysterious, hence less interesting.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Last Lecture Series


I read in the paper about this guy at Carnegie-Mellon who was giving his "last lecture" in their Last Lecture Series. Got me thinking. What last lecture would I give? Is that the same thing you'd say from your death bed? Probably not. A Last Lecture means it's given out to a group. It assumes they're sitting there thinking you probably have something to say. It probably also implies you're getting paid for this, so you're not likely to do something really weird like take off your clothes while lighting a fire on stage. Currently I'm filled with animosity toward people who give respectable Last Lectures. Like he was so damn proud of his not allowing 19 years olds to use sex or violence in their design of computer games. Oh, Randy, you're thuch a nithe guy! Did you tell them to vote for a Democrat, too? A woman? Preferably a black woman Democrat! That would be worthy of a standing ovation. I'm unfair. I don't even know you. Maybe you're a great guy and a great teacher. And maybe I'm just pissed because I can't decide what I would say at my last lecture.
Let's see I can come up with some notes:
1. Most of what you hear is garbage. Most news is wrong. Most analysis is wrong. Most of your views of the world (even if you're vigilant) are wrong. Only vaguely connected to what "is" or what will "be".
2. I'm sorry to tell you this, but at our present state of evolution, we have absolutely no fucking clue about why we are here or if we have anything like "souls" or if we do what might happen to them. That's not to say if you can "trick" yourself to follow the ethical principles of (most) religions (excluding militant Islam and some revenge-voodoo based animist cults), you're going to be pretty OK.
3. Though I said most religion are clueless what some of them have to say is useful. For example, it helps to forgive people rather easily (including yourself). It also helps not be allow yourself to be easily offended. "Honor" based on what some idiot says about you is dumb. Don't honor kill. Another useful idea (Buddhists are particularly good at this one) is to "live in the present." That's not the same thing as hedonism, ie. "get stone in the present." Try to be healthy! It means, ultimately, all you really have is the next moment (watch out for that car!), you have (usually) this day, this moment. Be fresh and open as much as possible.
4. Don't try too hard to reconstruct yourself. 99% of your DNA (sorry if you don't believe in evolution, bravo!) is monkey DNA. Much of the rest of it is programmed by your genes, and your family environment. There's a tiny, tiny bit of it that you can impact with "self improvement" programs. Acceptance with humor of "who you are" is a very good thing.
5. Every man and woman is a star. Whoops, Aleister Crowley said this. Bad boy! But it's true. What it means is that no matter how much DNA we share with another human being, whatever tiny percent made them A SEPARATE BEING FROM YOU, it's enough to effectively put them in another universe. Treat every person as a complete unknown! Having said that, don't be stupid. People who look and act like predators are probably dangerous. Many predators don't even look the part.
6. It's OK to be hopeful, even idealistic, provided you don't really believe in it. Believe in your actions (ie. helping people in a village in Africa is a good thing). It's not a better thing because you might be converting them to Jesus, capitalism or Marx (Karl). Be humble in your actions and remember: Mother Teresa was a troubled person, struggled all the time with questions of belief and love vis a vis God. Poor dear.
7. Don't undervalue humility and politeness.
8. It's possible to "believe in nothing" and still be a wonderful (non-Neitzchian) person. It's possible to be "prejudiced" and still be a nice person (IF you know that the programming that made you prejudiced is bullshit and you can sidestep it in the moment).
9. Remember: Our sun is scheduled to die. It's all going to burn up!
10. Amen.

Monday, September 17, 2007

MAD HOUSEHUSBAND


It's probably not the wisest thing to allow myself to act like the Mad Housewife. I mean witholding sex from the overachieving woman. I can't help but notice the similarities with "her" situation. I mean, she's out there in the world, achieving, etc. I'm at home, maintaining the kids. (Even though in our situation, since she's the woman and would be "crushed" to think she's not a good mom we keep up the fiction that she's pulling her weight in the parenting department). So she comes home exhausted, flops on the couch and sleeps, then wakes up late and asks what's for dinner? But it's not the "old-fashioned" power-clear question the 1950s wife got asked (too obvious), it's more "where's our planning?" It quickly spirals downward into that we're bad parents (don't plan meals) and that our marriage is failing (we don't make time for one another). It's not like she doesn't take any blame. She's Jewish and used to taking on all the blame, which is hard because then she's sort of groveling and desperate. That's when she points out I don't like sex anymore. Great. You're real attractive at the moment. I'm like the wife again, you have to court me, why don't you give me a massage (earrings in the 1950s)?
It's all rather pathetic and downhillish. If I want to have an affair I should probably "manage" her better, attend to her like a child, which I sort of feel I've been doing for years. Yesterday we had a dumb fight where I accused her of having too much outrage (about something). Then she made fun of how I did that, how my body language was "cool" as if I had no outrage. She vacillates between being willing to take some/all the blame, then wanting none. I can never predict when she'll crumble and cry (become the woman again), or when she meet me with anger. When we both meet with anger I think we get scared. Neither of us is really very good at sustaining anger, we immediate "catastrophize" and think sustained anger means we're incompatible, practically divorcing.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

The Only Way to Fight Back!


The only way to get back at them, at the people who are out there making things and telling us what to think is to make things yourself. I tell you this not only for "self development" which can be a kind of consumerism (consuming books and programs and taking too many classes) but as a way of psychic self defense. Yes, you heard me. This is not about magic but about your mind, you are constantly under attack. You are constantly batted around by "news" and "experts" and "we're sure you'll want to hear more (about someone else's tragedy)." It is all garbage. Mostly it is lies. Even if it is not lies, it sucks away your life force. I wish I had a product for sale and you could buy it and then I could show you, Aha, you see, you bought it, you are in big trouble. No wonder people like meth. The perfect product, for a short short time you are King Of The World, then you are ugly and hungry for more and poor and desperate and now have pimples, too. You need more King Of The World! Of course you do. Maybe you should stop reading the New York Times. What do they know anyway? You would be surprised how young most of the writers are, hiding behind the skirts of this grand dame of publishing. They are snotty brats recently graduated from Brown, like all the kids in publishing. They might as well be vampires sucking your blood. Listen to me! I am not a Vampire or even a Christian. And I am not Korean! God forbid!
I love you all.
See picture of me and love me soon.
Soon Yi-Tan